With every receding tide in my life, there was almost certainly a complementary wave rushing back from the horizon. In the most serene moments of my holiday break, I felt the resurgence of my impending doom. As I lied in bed one night, in pitch-blackness (as how Deirdre and I preferred to sleep), I thought of death and the finality of it. I had narrowly escaped a sudden end a few times before, and I knew that no matter what I accomplished or how long I lived, it was inevitable.
My attitude had forever been altered for the better, even as I returned to work. Sure, I still despised the job– I mean, who likes trying to get people into debt? Yet I had this sense of comfort in it all. I was alive; so the simple fact I could feelanything at all – even if it was disapproval of the company’s practices – was reassuring, to say the least.
Depression is something that I believe we all experience at some point or another; in different ways and intensities, but it’s a part of life. My recent bout with depression was maybe the third time in my life that I had ever felt this way, and this was the most prominent attack yet.
I was catching up with a friend tonight, and another the night before; both times the topic of our futures was the hot subject.
I’m in a funk, have been for years. I thought being single would help that… I thought that a new job with better pay would help that… I thought breaking free from the monotony of my old job would help that…
The answer? Absolutely not. None of these measures truly alleviated the issue; they helped sure, but in the end, they’re all diversions, subtle ways in which to tell myself that I’m progressing.Read More »
I’m constantly reminded of myself and my surroundings that most of us live in a perpetual state of “Act One Syndrome.” What I’m referring to is the scriptwriting term Stasis = Death coined by the late Blake Snyder, writer of the Save the Cat!
Now this book (along with the credibility of the author mentioned above), are much maligned in its effectiveness and validity in the screenwriting world. It is not my intention to prove or disprove the accusations, but today I will elaborate on the principles he has used in his scripts and tie them into the real-life observations I had made.Read More »